"SEPTEMBER"

I play with the apple
They say I should eat it
Or it will consume me

I play fair despite of
Desire to be seen
Or feeling that would
Consume me

I'm not dead yet
but I'm on the edge
I hold my horses
For you
I'm not dead yet
I'm holding my last breath
To spend it
With you

I stop the airflow
For you
I suffocate for you
I am dying for you

I lied
I wanna do better
To keep it together
But i
Don't know how

I lied
I thought I'd be clever
Keep the secret forever
But I Lied

We lie because we want to protect the truth
Or we lie because we want to protect it too
All the time we live like we're jubilant
So I tried
And I lied
I lied because you wouldn't believe in facts
Oh I lie despite stomping on breaking ice
Oh I've got enough explaining what I feel like
So I lie

You had me at hello
Immediately I felt content
I couldn't let go
I felt I could dream again
But will it end
Like every other story
I'm kind of scared
Investing feelings again

But what feels better than a bit of hope
There is no pressure this time at all
Just a little bit of fun
So I got prepared
I was ready to risk it all
But you weren't there
I know you didn't mean to disappoint me
It's just my head wove another story
But you have to admit
It was different this time

Would it meant to be
Is it possible
Is there a place for me
In your parable
How much of us
Can we leave behind
Maybe it's too fast
Maybe I am way too much

So if you want to stay away
I can totally understand
I just wish I wouldn't have to look no more
Cause what feels worse than a broken hope
I know you didn't mean to disappoint me
It's just my head wove another story
But you have to admit
It was different this time